first one

I have always had this inside me.This attraction towards writing,But i didn’t have a motivation to write.Its not like i don’t have any problems to motivate myself.Its that I just kept me silent.Thats so not me though.

So lemme just get to my point I don’t want to listen to people’s opinion no matter whoever it is.Don’t think am some adult like a grown up citizen.I am not a teenager though i am 22.I have the right to vote,to drive,to get married.So maybe I can call myself a grown up.Thats why i always want me to take all the decisions of my life.I want to do whatever me in me says.But as you know my country doesn’t like that opinion of mine,so does my parents.That’s why i ask and take permission from them.Still i take their opinions with respect and try to do stuff they want me to do.Seeing this many people around me think they as they are older than me they have that right.Does this blog make me look like a crybaby who wants to do crazy stuff because of her grown up excitement…i don’t know maybe i am..

I want me to take decisions because that doesn’t make me regret it.Coming to the reason behind me writing this is,that i couldn’t find my beloved diary my secret keeper .It always helped me to open up which lessened the burden.I cant focus on a problem right now i have many of them am not settled yet,my so called crush or love of life does the shittiest of things and asks me why am i not talking why am i behaving in a different way,everyone i meet tries to control me,i can’t take a break from these.But today……today i wanted to go to a place to meet a friend of mine so i had to convince my parents all of sudden my brother gets into his soo called brother pants and says noo shouldn’t go………who is he to say that to me…yaa he is my brother he wants only good to happen to me and shit i know..i am done with this drama.Because he isn’t he just don’t want me to go out and get into trouble and all…All this years i don’t think outside world was that hard on me.It was my so called family that put me in uncomfortable situations.Neither my caring mother nor my loving father or this protective brother could stop those things or change things for me.So now i will only listen to father because he just says things that doesnt hurt my feelings and that convinces me.

i want everyone out there to just do things that makes sense to you.Dont listen to people who you think are not worth ur time and you.